2/27/05

Life has been relatively boring lately.  Pretty much been sitting at home and doing nothing…i really should be practicing regionals music, but whatever.  Yeah, and homework…pretty muuuuch don’t care.  Everyone’s been talking about prom lately, which seems completely ridiculous considering it’s freakin May 13th…about, oh i dunno, 2 months away.  Yeah, only two months…gee, i don’t think we have enough time.  I have to admit though, I have been looking around for a dress…I wanna get something vintage because every girl always has the same kinda looking dress.  I want it to be unique…something awesome looking, not too crazy, and looks somewhat good on me.  I need to look around more at some consignment shops, they better get some good stuff in, haha.  I am looking foward to prom though…unusual considering I’m not a whore and look at dances as ways to enforce my slutty reputation.  I think I got a good date too, lol.  It’s gonna be killahhh.

One thing that has pissed me off lately is this thing about my ex bf.  I’m not gonna mention names, but Carolyn asked me out of nowhere a few weeks ago if i would be cool with her going to the winter formal with my ex, claiming it was just a date to the dance and nothing more.  I was said I was cool with it, but it gave me an incentive to not go to the dance haha.  Little background: I went out with this guy before school started and a little bit into the year.  I was really busy and all and never got to see him, so we decided to take a "break".  Needless to say we didn’t back together, but I still did have feelings for him.  Why didn’t I get back with him?…I had some issues going on, not a time I needed bf or could deal with one.  I think I needed a break from the whole dating/boyfriend thing for a while…and honestly, I don’t think I’ll want a bf for a little while even now.  But anyway, back to the story…so after that weekend, I was hesitant to talk to carolyn about the dance.  I didn’t really wanna hear about it.  Ironically, that tuesday was Valentine’s day, and someone just happened to mention that carolyn was dating someone.  Now, hmmm…if we put 2 and 2 together here…she wasn’t just dating someone that friday at the dance…who in the hell could be be?  Haha, oh yes, I knew who it was.  So when I asked her friend and she couldn’t tell who he was….haha someone got a little pissed off. 

Anyway, she hasn’t talked to me, I haven’t talked to her…if she’s so afraid to talk to me and knew I would be pissed off, then why the hell did she pursue him?  If I knew my friend would be mad at me for going our with her ex, would I go out with them? Uhhhh no.  I really haven’t mentioned it at all, but it really bothers me.  I didn’t think she would be the type of person to pull this shit, but i guess no one is immune to it.  Overall, I am quite pissed the fuck off (if you didn’t know).

Oh well, i will write more later.  Do some snow dances tonight…kaayy.