October 4, 2005

10/5/05

I think I hate it here.

But I can’t leave….I love the city, I love my boyfriend, I love jess and john and my friend who go to temple. Everything else is great. Except my school. I feel like I have no friends, I absolutely hate my classes, and I just feel so stressed out all the time for no reason. And it’s not like I’m doing badly grade wise…I’m doing pretty damn well actually.

I don’t get it. I’m not a quitter…I’ve never quit anything in my life. What the hell can I do. My major is also kinda rare, so it’s not like I could transfer to the school down the street. And I want to stay in the city.

I feel really depressed right now. I cried in front of him tonight…and I’ve never cried in front of anyone. Ever. In my whole life.

I just want to go home. Or on vacation. For a very long time.

forget me not.

And that’s why you need to come visit me. Get away from the city and come to Mootown USA. But I promise that the majority of guys here are miiiiighty fine. I miss you so much, like you don’t even know. I keep telling people here about you and how awesome you are and how I hope you’re coming to visit! Anyway. I hope things get better at school.

honey i know exactly how you feel, you know where i am if you need me much love!