1/27/04

2 snow days off from school… usually that would be good but a) now we have to make even more school besides the strike days and b) my parent’s obvious goal in life is to ruin mine, so I have to be stuck with that even longer than necessary.

Didn’t really do anything monday…my sister had her weird friends over though i talked to them anyway…haha my only source of entertainment for the day.  My mom basically lectured me the entire day about how I should be studying math, doing the cumulative worksheets for my test wednesday…she was down my throat the entire day about it, and that annoyed the crap outta me.  How would you like it if you were constanly ragged on about having to do something while you were in the process of doing it?  Um, not me.  No way.

This morning, to my surprise, we didn’t have school again, even though the roads weren’t bad.  I’m guessing they were holding out for the freezing rain this afternoon.  Anyway, jason and Sarah called me to go the the movies, which I sooo wanted to do considering I had been stuck in my house for 2 days with nothign to do and my mom being a complete bitch to me.  Of course, though, my mom says no and proceeds to tell me why.  Apparently i do not know how to “manage my time correctly” and I do a lot of other things wrong which was great to hear.  I swear, it was the stupidest thing I have ever heard; I simply asked her if I could go or not, and then she continues to tell me what the hell is wrong with me.  Did I fucking ask that? I don’t think so, but I gues she thought it was necessary to make me feel even worse about myself.  I was getting so pissed off that she kept going off on this tangent about how I don’t know how to do anything , blah blah blah, that I just told her to shut up, that I just asked her if I could go to the movies, and that she was just making everything worse.  I walked away from her before she could bitch at me even more.  I think it’s clever how she bitches at me for one thing wrong with me that she knows I will obviously get mad at her for, and then when I do get mad, she can lecture me some more about how I have a bad attitude.  Oh how I love her so fucking much.

Haha, my dad just called me and says he wants me to go to school to get more books to study for other stuff and then do even more studying for math.  I was in a bad mood already and I just told him that I was pissed off and didn’t wanna deal with him at the moment.  But of course, he told me anyway.  My mom probably called him to add to the happiness level of my day.  God kill me now.

The thing that reaalllyyy pisses me off is that when I just asked her a simple question, she just gives me all of these reasons why I’m not perfect and what I need to do.  Uh, did I ask you about my faults in life?  Believe me, if i really wanted to know, I would have asked you first, because you have displayed your knowledge in the area quite well.  God, if you’re in a bad mood mom, please do not take it out on me because I am the LAST person on earth and take your shit.  I’ve taken it my whole entire life from her, you think I want anymore of it?

I dunno, I guess that’s why I’ve resorted to avoiding them so much.  I stay away from them at home, go out whenever I can.  I just keeps me sane because I talking to them always makes me unhappy.  Thinking about it, i guess my relationship with my parents is pretty bad, which is kinda sad.  I guess I’ll have to wait until college.