1/13/04

I love school.  HAHAHA not.

I’m only a junior, but I have the motivation and the attention span of a senior.  In other words, I personally think school can go suck it.  I’m so sick of all the homework, learning about things I’ll never use ever again, all the shit my teachers give me, and feeling so stressed out everyday about grades, college, etc.  Today, I’m especially in the procrastinating mood, so I’m definitely taking way longer to finish my homework than I really should, lol.  I think that life would be so much easier if we took away the whole competetive – cut throat – grade whore system that this country shoves down our throats and replaced it with a comprehensible system that was based on understanding and not one’s ability to conform to the uniform educational system, then everyone would be much happier.  Whew, that was a lot there.  But then again, who really doesn’t think that.

I thinking I’m turning into an extreme introvert.  Which is odd really because every weekend I go out with masses of people.  Maybe I’m just becoming more depressed, or atleast my parents think so, haha.  At times I still think I am, but then other times I’m happy, so it’s all kinda hard to tell.  Depression is a continuous thing, so I really don’t think I qualify.  I guess it’s just the stress of school getting to me.  Hmm…what else…my sister continues to torture with her limited electric guitar skills every night, but I still try to be nice to her.  Since she was all upset about her little theatre thing being cancelled, I try to be nice to her about it.  It was really sad though; the guy who ran her theatre group all of a sudden was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer, which is really sad due to the fact he has like 3 kids and that he and his wife just had a baby a few months ago.  I met him like, twice, but it still upset me to hear about it because he was such a nice guy and a lot of kids, including my sister and the kids at Collegium, loved him.  That’s gotta really hurt.

Anyway, maybe I felt like relaying that event because I am feeling more depressed.  All that sad stuff usually comes back to me, probably cause it helps me relate.  Ugh, and I hate talking about myslef and this shit too, but it’s taking over my brain at the momento.  Oh well, I’ll probably feel better tomorrow.  Gotta finsh the homework in which I’ve put off for the past 3 hours. Haha.