relationship of ’21-’23

It’s hard to fight and stray along when I know it is pointless. It is pointless to keep going when I know that all I am doing is wasting time. How do I know it is time to go get better, to grow; when I feel so much comfort in the feeling of you. I know you are no good for me. you make me doubt the good and question the safe. You are so uncomfortable that you bring me solace. You are so difficult to live with that I live with you with ease. You make me feel so alone but I know that with you by my side I will never feel lonely. I want to quit you. I want to get better, to send you off on your way to the next to destroy. But what if the next is not as strong as me and you bring defeat. You won’t leave me because you find comfort in me too. Do you know comfort? Have you been friends for a while? Longer than me? Will y ou suffer without me the way I do with you? I don’t know how to make it better with me without damaging you. I don’t know how to leave without hurting you. If I don’t will you continue to hurt me? I wonder if you know that you burn me. You burn me so hard that I melt in. your embrace. I suffer from the lightest of touch