blooming romance

Amy,

Im sitting on my bed listening to Bruce Springsteins, "secret garden". It is such a beautiful song that I cant even describe the beauty of love it makes me feel and long for. I want those lyrics to become my life. I want to have my secret garden cherished.

I had dinner with Mark and I told him about Alex. How can it already feel like being in a relationship when we havent even had one date? Am I scared of getting hurt? yes, but I have to try to see where this works. We both seem to just click. I dont want to really talk about it.

i took so many pills trazadon,ambien, couldnt find the adivan and my tenex. Im so stoned and feel like im about to pass out.

No wonder they think it will make me feel better,,,i wont feel anything besides there AWESOME drugs. TOo bad i cant be like this all day. At least im not smoking while being on them. Its such a burry, heavy sedating feeling. i could lay down and sleep now but i really like enjoyin the fuzziness.