pt 3~Life after baby

10/30/2003

From the moment that my son was born. My world revolved around him. I still have so much passion for writting about my life prior to him and once he was born. From the moment I knew I was pregnant, I thought of nothing more. I wanted to be a mom. I didnt care what society said. I was going to make it on my own with this little life. I had family support to a point. My dad and I had never gotten a long very well. But this baby brought us together.

Russ was another story. He was there to see his first son brought into the world. As soon as Cody was born and they laid him on my chest. Russ looked at me with tears in his eyes. Told me he loved me, and turned and walked out of the room. It hurt that he walked away, but at that point I was to wrapped up in my son.

When they took Cody to clean him up. My whole family and friends flooded my room. I guess I should mention that in the room during delivery were.. my mom , dad, best friend Denise, my grandma, my aunt and russ mom, and Russ. In the hallway were 5 of my guy friends, my cousin, 2 girl friends, even my ex financee was there with his current girlfriend (we still have remained friends to this day) russ dad and my brother.

I named my baby. I gave him my last name. Prior to this day Russ had commented that if I gave the baby HIS last name that his parents would sue for custody of the baby, and if I gave him my last name, he wouldnt have anything to do with the baby. I made the choice. Russ signed the birth certificate the next day and never asked about Codys last name. I had decided if he asked about it that we would discuss it. But he never said a word. (Codys name got changed to his daddys name, we got the new birth certificate the saturday before Russ first Fathers day) I held it til sunday and presented it to him as his first fathers day present)

After the birth of OUR son. Russ came to the hospital all 3 days I was there. And the day we came home he met us at my parents house, to help welcome us home.
We had a long road ahead of us. We had only known each other 10 months and we already had a son. What are the odds that we would survive together? Odds were against us..But we did it. The long hard road of ups and downs has been worth it.
November 28,1992 we were married in a small church wedding. His mom helped me put it together (due to family problems, I moved in with russ family at the end of October)