9/18/05

For some odd reason I feel like singing….  But I hate me singing voice so I dont want to do it… But its this urge, and it is really begining to piss me off.  I mean I do sing, just not when people can hear me.  I  dont like the way I sould.  I think that it is too hight piched, but I cant go really low without damaging my voice.  It really sux.  Sometimes I would like to take a knife and cut out my voice box, but as I put it to my throat, I relize that I’m too much of a coward to do it.  I also wonder what it would be like to go around blind but there is no way something hot and pokey is going to make it anywhere my eye. 

So ya I’m a loser.  I am a coward to, but I already knew that. I find I have run out of insults for myself… *sad*

I just relized that when people read this they will wonder if I am sucidial… well the answer is yes.  Lately though I really havent felt like taking my life, I guess that i am too lazy to do it.  Oh well

~Alicesandressa