its here…..

the stress caught up wit me. i went to my aunts house today and we started talking about my highschool choices. (we as in me, my mom, my dad, my uncle, my aunt, and my five cuzins) so yea my mom says," i dont kno if shell make it in." my aunt says of corse shell get in r u crazy shes a 95 average student." (notice my aunt has more confidence in me then my own mother) my mom goes on and on and on about how i prolly wont make it. then everyone except my parents say im gunna do a great job and not to worry. then i start to cry. these were tears that i were holding inside for a while now. my cuzin Joanne she comes over and gives me a hug. not my mom not my dad but my cuzin. i hav great parents dont u think. then i was tryin to stop crying in the car on the way home. my mom says "shut the fuck up and stop crying" that just made me cry even more. its like u tell me to stop and ill just start up again. for me to stop crying all u gotta do is leave me alone and give me a hug. everyone but my parents understands that. so yea i just had to get it off my chest.

btw thanx for the note on the last entry u guys are the greatest luv ya bubi

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November 5, 2006

This gives you more strength so you can win your way into the school you want, for yourself and also to prove your parents wrong. Cry whenever you need to. It’s not healthy to hold it in. =)

November 6, 2006

So sorry that your parents are assholes. Glad that your other family supports you and that you have a place to go when you need that hug.

November 6, 2006

I’m sure you did well on the test. I wish your parents had more faith in you, I think it would make it easier to believe in yourself that way. Feel free to cry it out, you know we’re here for you here šŸ™‚ *hugs*

November 6, 2006

if i was there i would give you a big hug! (if that helps) sometimes i just need a hug too but i never get any

November 14, 2006

damn. most the time ur rents arent the greatest ppl in the world. nor do they want to suck it up and admit they have done wrong. but yea just dont worry about them. i know u will/did fine. rents can be stupid. it just makes u a better person, somehow ~kandi~