is there something wrong with me??
today my parents and i went shopping. my dad dropped my mom off at the nail salon and we came ome to unpack the groceries. i went to put the vegetables in the refridgerator in the luandry room. i thuoght my dog was outside so i didnt expect her to jump on me. so i was holding a sixpack of beer to make room for the vegetable and my dog jumped on me i got so scared and i dropped the case. beer and glass from the broken bottles fell all over the floor i when my dad came inside i told him to get the mop he saw the floor and started to yell at mehe told me not to touch anything else cause he thought i would break something else. i went in my room and started crying. then he started to say things like u can never do anything right u hav no muscles in ur arms that y u dropped it always blamning someone else for what u do. that just made me cry even harder. i went in the kitchen to unpack the rest of the stuff and he starts yelling at me again cuz he told me not to touch anything. i go back in my room. when he goes outside to get the rest of the stuff i go in the kitchen to unpack everything couse he dont kno shit!!! he dont kno where the fuck anything goes!! he comes back in im in the luandryroom putting away the oranges. then i go in my room. he come in and starts yelling at me cuz he said i was lying to him about sici jumping on me. i wasnt to i started to cry and to scream. i couldnt breath at all so he tried to calm me down. then i told him to go away and he left me alone. he came back and told me he wouldnt tell my mother cause she would get very upset. then he had to go somewhere so he left me by myself. i took one of the ultra thin scarves i made and i was choking myself with it. then i couldnt breath and i thought about what i was doing and i let go. i almost killed myself. everytime something like this happens i thing about killing myself and this time i almost did. what about next time. i might actually do it. i need someone to talk too. or else ill go crazy. please someone talk to me before i do something unthinkable i need to just chat with someone about everything or else who knows what could happen please someone talk to me!! im sotty for any typos i cant really see the jeybored to well its all blury.
Honey, it’s alright. Really. Forgive me for my assumption but your dad seems like a jerk. I understand what it’s like to be upset and even to try to choke yourself. When I was your age I went through a very similar situation, so know you’re not alone in this. If you need someone to talk to you can note me back. Take care.
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Wow, he sounds like such a jerk. Please don’t do anything to yourself. If you need to talk, you can e-mail me at tiny_starla@yahoo.com. Even though it seems like such a long time before you’ll be able to move out, you’ll get through the next few years, and then things will get better.
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No, there is nothing wrong with you, but what your parents are doing is wrong. I’ve read a few of your entries and it seems they are taking their frustrations at life out on you. No way would I ever have called my daughter a bitch or told my children they were useless. It’s a parents job to build self-esteem not destroy it Just understand that it’s their problem not yours. My father did the same
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to me and my mum, brother and sisters. The day will come soon when you can leave home; just always remember that you are a good person(I can tell), you are NOT useless and don’t let them tell you you are. Remember when you have kids to treat them better and with love and respect.
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I’m glad that you realised that killing yourself is not the answer.Your mum & dad would have been sad & regretful for a while but ppl get over it, & you would have missed out on a wonderful life of love, career, having kids, holidays and happy times. You are much stronger than that. It’s your parents that are missing out, as my father did,on the love and respect of his children(we all moved away)
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You can always get advice and support on this site so hang in there and know it will get better. Just work on thinking of what you want to achieve in life and go do it. Sending lots of love,
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I’d like to talk to your dad, and have him explain to me why he is taking out his frustrations on you. People make mistakes and although it’s fine to be annoyed over spilt alcohol, it’s not ok to belittle and demean you until you can barely breath. Here is the deal, there is nothing wrong with you. You are 13, he is the adult, he should know how far to take things and how far not to.
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Don’t get mad at yourself, or sad or think you are not good enough. It sounds to me like he would pick on you even if you were the perfect child. Your dad has issues and anger control problems, he needs to seek help for them, or start owning up to his problems and start taking care of them so they do not affect you. This is not about you. This is not about you being a bad kid or him not caring
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about you, this is about him. You are a special person that doesn’t deserve to get treated like that.
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Thanks for the note 🙂 When you get mad like that, try to rememeber that you don’t really want to harm yourself, you’re just angry and it will go away. It hurts, and you need some help dealing with the bigger issue of your fathers abuse. Not all abuse is physical. If you want to chat sometime leave me an email axalotal@excite.com and we’ll chat :)*hugs*
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There’s not ing wrong with you. Your father has the problem and inmaturly taking them out on you.
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i agree with musicalkit. ur dads a jerkface. dont let him get to you. and maybe you should try and talk to ur mom about getting help if u think about suicide alot. maybe if u get help, next time it wont get bad. idk. just always remember, its not worth losing ur life.
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If you ever need someone to talk to please send me an e-mail sol.glow@gmail.com . Also, don’t be afraid to talk to an adult about this stuff if you have one that you trust. They may be able to help and offer you a place to come to for a couple of hours when you need to get away.
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talk to your dad tell him that they way he talks to you hurts your feelings and anthing else you tell him.
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shit like shit! do you have school counsellors? GO SEE THEM NOW. he has ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT WHATSOEVER to send you into a tailspin like that. It constitutes abuse! and dont let him twist you tell your mum! LIFE IS ALWAYS WORTH LIVING BECAUSE THERES ALWAYS THE HOPE THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER iin the meantime you are my official note party winner!! congrats and come to my diary to collect prizes!
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Psh what do parents know… trust me ive had 17 years of mine hun, just blank them thats what i do and give short and simple answers like “yes” or “no” or just shrug at them = ) normaly works u wana talk my diarys just a click away = )xXx
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I do alot of stupid stuff like that too…and no offense but I think you dad said he wouldnt tell your mom bcuz he knws he was in the wrong… and maybe that was just his way of telling you… you knw that guys dnt like to admit when they are wrong lol. But i’ve cut myself…. never thought i could do sumthin like that but I did. I make alot of threats of suicide.. and your right…what if I actually go thru with it one day? its hard to go thru things when your as emotional as us.But I understand what your goin thru….if you need to talk you can talk to me.
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i dont like chain hang low ether i like green day
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Hi, I’m a girl that does pretty much the same thing! I am your age too, i think it would be kool if u and me talked or somethin’. The only difference is that my parents don’t drink soo that’s one difference. Write Back!!! Take care. 🙂
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I’ts Me Again! Thanks for the advice cuz u no i do love bowling! So how are u and ur family oh and thanx for writing me back I started to get lonely!!! 🙂
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hey its me agin life sucks i cant wait till im 18 and move out but right noww am 13 bye
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