A'ishah

July 10, 2007

miscellinia

“Oh ye Egyptians, they may say to you that I have not made an expedition hither for any other object than that of of abolishing your religion, but tell the slanderers, but I have not come to you except for the purpose of restoring your rights from the hands of the oppressors.”

– Napoleon Bonaparte July 2, 1798

“Our armies do not come into your cities and lands as conquerors or enemies, but as liberators. It is the hope and desire of the British people, and the nations in alliance with them, that the Arab race may rise again to greatness and renown among the peoples of the earth.

– Sir Frederick Stanley Maude, Commander of British Forces in Baghdad, March 19, 1917.

“Unlike many armies in the world you came not to conquer, not to occupy, but to liberate.”

– Don Rumsfeld, speaking to US troops, April 2003

I had to write a paper in four days (well, I HAD a month and some change, but opted to wait til four days before it was due to start working on it), and that sparked, I think, my first return to MY world. *lol*

Anyhow, I’m reading again. I’m balancing three books now (one car, two home), and I’m seriously considering getting the Harry Potter set, and reading that. Right now, I’m reading Misconceptions, and it’s sad, scary, amazing, enlightening, absorbing, and terrifying all at once.

Any ideas of something new to add to my library?? I’v been on a mad bookbuying spree for a while (how I love thee LibrarySale! How I adore your variety, BookCloseOuts.com!)

Tis a Gaia goddess pendant, handblown by a wonderful artist friend of mine. I’ve been wearing it for the last two months, we’ve (I’ve?) been trying to get pregnant for the last four. I’m finally ready to mention it – publically – so to speak.

It’s possibly the most – nerveracking thing I’ve ever done in my life, and I’m trying to not obsess about it everywhere. OD is my almost only babyfree area, and – I kinda want to keep it that way. This is for ME. When I was a preteen, I wrote to create my own space – my own identity separate from my mother and fathers child. When I was a teen, I wrote to help me understand and explore the woman I was growing into. As I woman, I write to ground me in myself, and to give me free room and space to explore and grow. As a mother, I KNOW I will need a space that is mainly for me – a space where I can still be just A’ishah – not Mom. That’s one of the main reasons I sprung for a lifetime membership while I knew we could afford it – I NEVER want to have to chose to give up my safe space because of financial tightness. If OD goes under, I’ve got my backups, and I’ll make a blog, and I’ll miss you all dearly.

So. It’s out there. But don’t expect to hear much – directly. :lol At least not HERE…. I might be throughly Eve&Eve and make another diary. But honestly? I doubt it.

At least for now. 😉

As I’ve learned/learning, what I’m certain of changes almost from day to day.

I’m still stretching out my ears too (thanks A!)…. my front holes are 6g, and my second holes are being stretched to an 8g as I type.

My collection of earrings is – delightful and wide and I really need to take a picture of them all (once the other three? four? pairs show up *shamefulgrin*). I think I’m going to stop at 6g, seriously. Maybe. *grin*

I want to look into making fimo earrings. My favorite style – the dangles – dont come in very many sizes, and I’m sure I could figure out how to make some GORGEOUS earrings.

It’s a thought.

We shall see.

Dinnner’s done. 😉

I recommend Jesus Land by Julia Scheeres. Alternately funny and ultimately heart-breaking.

Stretching not gauging! Body mod people would throw a fit if they saw you say that. Shit. Bricks. Seriously, they’re mean, look out. Your friend did that? Is that the chick on MDC? I wanted one but couldnt come up with the cash a while back. I got on here wondering about your TTC journey as well, it is a PAIN in the ass isnt it? Oh well at least you have really great couches.

RYN: You think she could make me a little belly and boob pendant with a little earth inside the belly? How long is yours?

RYN: It wouldnt let me note her myspace, but I emailed on the site with her name as the title 😀 -crosses fingers-

Oh, and FWIW, I love Sculpey more than FIMO. IMO, Sculpey is smoother and easier to work with, FIMO crumbles as it ages. Sculpey fruitcake —–>

Torin

July 12, 2007

I’ve tried blogs elsewhere, but have never found the community I have in OD. Mind you, I’ve been in OD since September ’99, so that might have something to do with it. With a smile…

That pendant is GORGEOUS. Does your friend have an Etsy account or anything like that? Yeah. In retrospect most people remember their TTC times as glorious rose-strewn moonlit nights, not a snarl of temperature-taking whilst having to pee, mechanical sex and the fear that you won’t be able to conceive. I don’t blame you for wanting to keep it separate from your A’ishah identity. Books: No WAY I’m wading through your library today, it’d keep me occupied for weeks! I love the eclectic nature of your selections – looks like MY bookshelves. If you haven’t, I recommend all the REST of the Nero Wolfe (Rex Stout) books, the “Incarnations of Immortality” series by Piers Anthony, and “Mrs. Sharp’s Traditions” by Sarah Ban Breathnach.

ryn: Well, now see, if I wasn’t a damned moron I’d have NOTICED that already! *rolls eyes* I should have known you’d already have heard of those series. *laughs* The 3rd book is just great fun; it’s geared to moms who tend to want to make special occasions out of nothing, sometimes.

Mayor of Nerdville

I’m sorry, I’m at work and I only had time to read half the entry before the ladies started interrupting and harrassing me, but I just wanted to tell you that I cannot wait to see you get pregnant. I know you’re gonna be the best mom ever, and I can’t wait to see all the cute belly pics and baby clothes, names and all that. I’ll send good, baby-conception vibes over your way. Be back tofinish after work!

Break On Through.

we may be moving to your neck of the woods in a few short years. got any good research places on the net I can check out? We’re both FED UP with our families and want to save up and move somewhere that doesn’t cost a billion dollars to live.

ryn – getting far away from them is the idea. i’ll blog on it soon. but we’re trying to see basically how much we’d have to save up to move us all down there that we could live on for a bit while we locate jobs (although I think my job would let me work from there).

Thunder Road

Sending good baby vibes your way… I am seeing HP tonight -yay!

uh, i just did that and we can get a freaking mansion for what we paid for our little house! holy mackeral.

Okay, I’m apologizing. Seems I missed your point earlier about not really discussing pregnancy and the like here on your diary. I understand what you’re saying about needing your diary to be your “you” place. Nonetheless, I’m wishing you the best of luck. Sorry for being so silly, before, though. There’s a guy who works in my building whose ear lobes are stretched to the size of a bangle bracelet. I don’t know what the gauge number is or anything, but I’m positive I could stick my hand through the holes. A part of me is a little creeped out by it, but on the other hand, it’s really intriguing. I want to ask him questions about it, but I don’t know him and I don’t want to seem like I’m gawking or anything. Hmmm, I’m gonna try to think of a good book for you to read. There are a few new ones out there that sound good, but of course I’m at a memory loss right now. I guess I’m off to check out some of those links up there. 🙂

therumtumtugger

July 13, 2007

I know you want to keep TTC separate from OD (and believe me, I can understand that feeling!) but I wanted you to know that I have my fingers crossed for you. And – oh – buying books! Is there any occupation more wonderful! Jack despairs of me now – all of our shelves are heaving, but I still come back with more…

Recommending The Kite Runner if you haven’t read it. LOVE the pendant!