Clarity

I’ve been having some of the most amazing, intense, vividly alive dreams ever for the last week or so.

While it’s always nice to have a fabulous bit of entertainment while asleep, a major downside is that – I don’t really get a chance TO sleep. I slept for *thinks* 15ish hours on Saturday, and woke up STILL feeling tired.

We’re working semi-shifts at work (someone screwed the pooch nigh to death, and thus us peons have to take on 12 hr days), so I’m waking up around 8:30, and working from 10 – 7, and going back to sleep around 11-midnight….which, beside the extra hour in the morning, is my normal sleep schedule – but that extra hour doesn’t even count!

I’m atually nervous about taking a nap (as I could do, at work, in the lovely quiet room) because I’m afraid I’ll actually get MORE tired. I feel likeI got through last week by the skin of my teeth, and the only thing that kept me going was last week was full of chaos at work. This week seems to to be sharing up pretty quietly, and I’m so tired I want to cry.

I think I might drug myself to sleep tonight, and see if that knocks out my over active rain long enough for me to get some sleep. At the same time, I kinda – welcome the dreams – I don’t know I feel like they might have meaning, or that my brain is busily working through something that is now suddenly important and my consious mind is totally unaware of – so I don’t want to totally squelsh them – I just wanna get some bloody REST.

*sigh* *huge yawn* *rubs eyes* *bigger yawn* *rubs away tears from yawn*

When my coworkers note that I LOOK tired, that’s a bad sign, yo. *sigh*