tuesday is gone

Damn. I never wanted things to be like this, I just got so caught up in how good it felt that i didnt want anything other than you. All of the time. One night drunk and wasted i threw away what i was hoping for because i didnt have it right then, that i couldnt have what i wanted right away. I said i missed you with tears pouring down my face and you said, “not enough that it didnt kept you from making out with somebody else.” A brief i gotta go and then you hung up the phone. At that moment all my emotions swirled, i felt so much hurt and the only person to blame is myself. I wasnt patient, i didnt give you space and i rushed into things… And now all that is left is a memory of something that was soo special to me and now its lost because i couldnt wait. 2013EWD