in a city of steel

i guess you thought i didn’t fit in to your life, once you sobered up… when the effects of banquet’s beer removed itself from your blood stream you thought twice about the words you said… the kisses we shared. with the dawn came light and truth, and in my heart came a feeling of alienation, a strange bitter thing that tugged on my heart strings… white dresses, black tuxes, and diamond rings, this heart still bleeds. spring brings new life and with it let it bring me growing strength, the power to smile at the face of a friend that once brought such beauty, if only for a moment, so that i can honor this love regardless if it was only in my heart alone. it’s my love, not yours… i can’t let this taint that, i won’t let you take this perfection that grew from a life of pain. wash it away with the rain… let it pour down till all language and thought is erased, until all the dirty lies pour down the drain. these lips are still sweet, and this mind will always retreat to a fonder time, a few drunken early morning hours when you were mine.

eric w. desselle