i drew in your shadow

its so strange how you talk to me like it never happened, all those days that built up to nothing, how you joke with me almost like before, when i would see you everyday and then other times i feel as if weve gone back to day one and you wont speak to me. You wont look at me. This shouldnt mean so much to me, you were so kind to me and all i wanted was more and more… I wanted to keep you to myself, not because im selfish but because i wanted to protect you. That was wrong… Youre a big girl and you can take care of yourself. Right? I figured if i knew where you were all the time i wouldnt have to worry, so i kept you under a watchful eye and that made you hate me. I dont control you, youre gonna do what you want, irregardless of what i think. Im sorry i messed up what we had. The time i spent with you was one of the happiest i had ever known. I drew so much strength from our friendship that when it was over i died and it took what felt like forever to see that you are diferent now and im still me.