gate 12

lets retrace what we wrote in graphite and use a permanent marker so we can see each stroke, thought and word clearly. do you remember the day that all the laughter went away? do you remember when we decided to be miserable instead of in love? this wasn’t good enough, tough enough, but things have changed and i’m not catering to your needs anymore, that much is true… you hurt me, and i hate you, yet still… somewhere deep inside i still love you, think you’re beautiful and special… eventhough you don’t want me to. eventhough you told me these arms could never comfort you, i still long to hold you in my arms… whisper in your ear…. everything is so fuc*ed up. you and me that was my fantasy, and i want to retrace the steps that led me to you, to this desperation, to this one sided commitment that holds my heart back at every chance. you ruined you and you ruined me too. and i want the words to be in bold, i don’t want to forget when i’m old, every lie you told.

eric w. desselle