Cold sunshine

i blame the phone alot but i know it is not its fault. I make alot of excuses for you and i think about you alot because i dont know you, because i dont care. Not. I should just forget what was and move forward with what ive got, but its never that simple, it is never that easy. Believe me if you want space i can give you that, if you want distance we can have our fill until you cant remember my name… But if you dont know me and you want to know me, we are never going to be able to do that if we are apart. Years and months on a calendar dont mean a thing, i fell under the spell of something special, all animals feel it, we just had to name it and say that it has to be perfect. My life isnt where i want it to be at either but i wasnt planning on turning people away until i got what i wanted out of life. … I dont need you and i am slipping out from under that spell, dont think i dont care, you cast me into the pits of hell because i do care and nothing has changed. EWD2013