Be back soon

Quote of the day:

"Instead of judging, start accepting yourself with all the imperfections, all the frailties, all the mistakes, all the failures. Don’t ask yourself to be perfect. That is simply asking something impossible, and then you are feeling frustrated. You are a human being." 

~Osho

I landed in Detroit, MI at approximately 10:30 this morning. I’m here for my ex-boyfriends wedding. Yep, Jermaine is getting married in a few hours and I am happy for him. Oddly enough, I’m nervous for their big day, although I don’t undestand why. I mulled it over in my head over and over again trying to decide how I feel about this. I’m an analyzer. I’m not happy until I overanalyze at times, and I’m ok with that.

Part of me wonders if I will be sad. If I will speak now or forever hold my peace. Majority of me knows that I’m not, and that peace will be held. I’ve always wanted the best for him and nothing has changed about that.

I don’t write much because it seems to take too much time and energy to come to OD most days, and that kind of makes me sad. This site sooooooooo use to feel like home for me, and perhaps it still is and I’m just the prodical daughter trying to ind her way back home, but I dunno. I guess I’m putting forth the effort right now right?

Wedding plans are fine. We were suppose to do a cake tasting this past wednesday but had to move it to the last sunday of this month. Besides stressing about money, everythings going smooth lol. I pretty much know the decorations I want, what I want to do, and all that jazz. The only thing that is still up in the air is the ceremony. I don’t want the same ole same ole vows. I don’t want a long ceremony either. I believe we decided on having 1 dance, 1 speaker, 1 scripture reader, 1 soloist. That makes for a more snappy wedding.

There’s more I could say, but I have some things left to do for the night, but I’ll be back soon though, I promise.

God Speed,

Future Mrs. Johnson