2/9/08

"Help Me"

Oh, lord, help me walk
Another mile, just one more mile;
I’m tired of walkin’ all alone.

And lord, help me to smile
Another smile, just one more smile;
Don’t think I can do things on my own.

I never thought I needed help before;
Thought that I could get by – by myself.
But now I know I just can’t take it any more.
And with a humble heart, on bended knee,
I’m beggin’ You please for help

Oh come down from Your golden throne to me, to lowly me;
I need to feel the touch of Your tender hand.
Release the chains of darkness
Let me see, Lord let me see;
Just where I fit into your master plan.

I never thought I needed help before;
Thought that I could get by – by myself.
Now I know I just can’t take it any more.
And with a humble heart, on bended knee,
I’m beggin’ You please for help
With a humble heart, on bended knee,
I’m beggin’ You please for help.

"Hurt"

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way.

one died, the other is in the hospital.  i have no idea what’s going on.

things dont look so bright right now…

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February 9, 2008

feel better and have hope or you have nothing.

February 10, 2008

sorry to hear that. You’re not alone. Hope it gets better.

February 17, 2008

that means a lot, thank you. its hard to have anyone take it seriously, and Dustin is too livid to be a good listener. let me know when you are home.