wake me up when september ends.

So September is here, and I feel like it’ll be my worse month yet of this year. Cory’s leaving for good tomorrow. It’ll be over. Can you believe it? We only had five months and 9 days. It’s so unfair. We slept together tonight. He’s staying over and then he’s leaving me. I don’t even know what to say or do anymore. This going to be so hard. I can’t even sleep, even though he’s lying right there and I could easily cuddle up next to him and fall asleep. But I don’t want to. I want to watch him all night long. I want to make sure he’s real.

I want to trace my fingertips along his bare body, kiss his eyelids, and breathe in the air he breathes. He’s so beautiful, you guys. Seriously.

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I mean. . .jesus he’s gorgeous. I love him so damn much. I really do. I adore him a lot. And he’s my everything. I just wish I didn’t have to let go.

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I am so sorry=-( Where is he going? You say for good so is he moving away. Being away from the person you love is so hard. Justin is going to school in France and I am sure I will be lovesick and sad. He’s not even my boy! You guys are adorable together. I wish you the best of luck, I know how hard this is going to be for you.

September 4, 2005

RYN: Ohhh okay. Well atleast that is better than what I was thinking. BUt still, I totally understand. Justin is at U of Maryland right now which is about the same distance away and it still feels far because he’s not at school everyday with me. And I can’t just go over after sports for like 30 min and go home.