You really went and triggered me this time.

I really don’t like showing my crazy to the world unexpectedly.

I found out about the 1^st girl and he cried his pity party to me. I’m sorry, please forgive me, I will give up the night life. I said no. I knew he loved this hobby and I would never want him to give that up because I knew he would be unhappy. it was important to him. I thought I wasn’t taking an interest in his hobby and maybe he was lonely. So, I decided to step out of my comfort zone and go out with him. I thought I could be supportive of his interests and try to socialize with his friends, be more engaged.

Walking into that place, with all those people, who knew he was married and knew what he had been doing. It felt like I just showed up to High School completely naked.  He just exposed my entire personal private life to people who don’t know anything about who I really am. They whisper and judge. The gossip mill starts running and everyone talking behind your back. It is very violating.

I know you have good intentions but you just did that too. I put my trust in you and you violated it. I know this is open for the world to see but I did that on my own to strangers and you. You took my ability to choose away. You opened my personal private world up to other people.  I am really upset about it. I am sure I will get over it but really was not prepared for that.