Tomorrow is another day
I think my messages got crossed, I am not sure really what happened. I skipped kickboxing and canceled dinner plans I had with friends. I just came home and went to bed from 7-7 like a baby. I see my therapist at 3 to do EMDR and again next week in case we don’t clear my targets. She is always trying to make me cry too.
I really want to stop poking around all my trauma. It is getting on my nerves.
I still have not gone to the apple store.
Wow, my ex would start fights with me over things like going to the gym and hanging out with friends. I just stopped doing anything to avoid the fights when I got home. Gave up myself 1 piece at a time over 10 years until I didn’t even know who I was anymore. I isolated myself just to avoid getting in trouble.
*hugs*
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My bedroom is my safe place
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When I started participating in his hobby I also had to see her every time we went. He went up to her to apologize and made her cry then came came back to me and told me she wanted to talk to me and apologize. I got upset an sent her a message don’t remember exactly what it said but that it was his mistake and he owed the apology and something about she needed to worry more about why she feels all she deserves is the half hearted attention of a married man. The next time we were out her friends wanted to get in my face because my honesty hurt her feelings. He played both of our broken selves against each other.
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Pastor Eric said something about we should ask questions and make powerful statements. I guarantee the statement and question made her grow as a person. I went to high school with her, she knew who I was. When I found out from my bestie a few months later that she was pregnant I was waiting for the phone call that while I am sitting here wanting a baby and being barren the my husband knocked up the girl from the bar. Is everyone sure they want to sign up for this HOT MESS.
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Hey, I hope you feel better soon! Also a little advice, dont care what your ex thinks, next time he fights with you just tell him to fck off and leave, trust me just saying that will releie stress and tug on his leash a little as well. If you need anything let me know!
@anonymoususer951 Thank you for caring about my feelings but I know my ex has his own problems. His problems don’t excuse his behavior in anyway but my pain doesn’t excuse my hurtful words either. We have children and they will suffer the most from this. I just want to find peace so I can love the people in my life that love me back. I don’t like the person I am with that anger.
@adifferentpersonthen Have you tried a punching bag? it may sound silly at the time but you can pretends it your ex and get some stuff out as well, and then you can get back to him as happy as ever! (sometimes) Also I don’t think anyone like the angry side of them, trust me I’m an Aries lol, also im sorry for what I said I didnt know the full story, thats just what I did to my ex. I hope you and your ex can live happy again soon! also I agree dont want to drag the kiddos into it that never fun 🙁
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