I am going to need you to stop triggering me

It is 5:37 am and my ass should be asleep.  You got me over here all stupid inspired to do stuff that seems crazy.  I am not speaking it yet, I felt and now I am thinking about it. Once I speak it, I have to do it. It is a lot of work, I am tired. I think it such a good idea though. I can’t do it alone, but I have help. I am not ready to ask for that help yet. I am so mad about this, excited and mad.  I don’t know what to do.  I really do think it is just a brilliant idea but can someone else do it. Why do I have to do it? I don’t know if I can do it.