08/18/2011

i want to write about how easy it all is but i can’t because i’ve forgotten what it’s like to have things click without any struggle, any awkwardness, any pulling to or pushing away.

we went out with our circle of friends together last night. when we walked in everyone seriously put their drinks down and liza ran up to me and asked, "are you guys talking?!" and we sat at separate tables for a bit and eric came over and kissed me and amanda was like, "so you guys are together?" and i don’t have answers but i don’t care. yes we’re talking, yes i’ve met his family, yes i’ve spent every day with him since last wednesday.

at the bar last night he pulls me to him after we danced to an undance-able song and says, "i like you. like a lot. a lot a lot." and i respond with, "good, because i like you too. a lot." i don’t think i’ve ever smiled so much in my life. on the way home eric looks at me and says, "my face hurts." and when i ask why he says, "my face hurts from smiling so much."

and mine does, too. i can’t explain how much we laugh. i sat with his mom, sister, brother, and his brother’s girlfriend at the table and we chatted while eric showered today. it’s so comfortable.

we laugh about EVERYTHING. i’ve never met someone with such a similar since of humor to mine. he’s a gemini. yiiiikes. can’t get rid of those geminis.

we had sex and it was pretty good but he’s a little inexperienced. i don’t mind AT ALL. it’ll (hopefully) give me the chance to teach him some stuff and, honestly, the better the sex is the more emphasis i put on it and it complicates things too quickly, especially at the beginning. it makes it more difficult to figure out whether you like that person or the sex. but yeah, it was still awesome.

this picture makes me smile for several reasons, but mostly because of eric and i at the end on your left. the other reason is corbin’s (the guy in blue) reaction to that girl, who is actually his roommate’s girlfriend. that’ll be an interesting coversation.

this one was of three pictures taken. in the other one i’m staring up at eric and in the third one he’s leaning down to kiss me. neither of those were posted on facebook but that’s okay.

eric is much cuter than he looks in that picture. he’s actually super hot. i mean suuuuper hot.

this isn’t stomach dropping, instant love but i think it’s going somewhere. i don’t want instant love. i want something based on laughs and waking up at one in the afternoon, and dancing. that’s what this is and i’m completely digging every single second of it.