07/18/2011

what you need to know first is that i have mad skills and i basically had a four day weekend on a regular two day weekend.

you can do this too if you:
1. take molly
2. find a group of friends who are down to party
3. drop your new iphone in the toilet, open it up (while intoxicated), let it air dry, put it back together once real life sets back in (monday), and celebrate when it works.
4. sleep off and on during the day. wake up often and think you’ve slept through at least two days.

i had an awesome weekend. i met tons of new people, saw ghostland live, took molly, threw up for 45 minutes, took a two hour nap, went to work on a sunday. i did it all.

but i didn’t make out with any boys and i’m proud of myself.

i don’t know if i’ll ever do molly again, but i was basically rolling all weekend and it was a blast. i’m paying for it physically, but i haven’t really had a come down.

i’ve been thinking about tom a lot. it doesn’t help that i see white ford explorers almost every time i go anywhere. i get stuck behind them at stoplights and all i can think is god must be playing a cruel joke on me.

i met a boy this weekend. his name is russ. he’s 6’5 and 26. he likes me and he’s interesting. smart, graduated, tall. he’s cute but not really my type. he spent last summer fishing in alaska and has been travelling around the us ever since. like i said, he’s cool and i’m talking to him because we have a lot in common. he even held my hair back while i threw up and he told me i looked pretty between gags.

i haven’t throw up like that since my freshman year in college. i mean, i was dry heaving. it was embarrassing. thank god for good people.

honestly, i’m holding out on guys until i get back from missouri. i want to give the cameron thing as much of a chance as possible.

i’ve been thinking about loneliness, where i’m moving when the united states collapses, why i’m more concerned with societal issues than economic ones, moving to san marcos in less than a month, sleeping in cameron’s bed in 26 days, feeling his body wrapped around mine.

but for now i’ll go with maybe deep sea fishing this weekend, drinks with friends, and counting down the days until i don’t have to wake up at 4:35 am.