January 16, 2012-

It’s insane how quickly things can change.

I’m in Paris for the next several months and it is wonderful. I love every single thing about this city. I could stay here forever.

Even better than Paris, I am so completely head over heels in love it is disgusting. Jason and I have been talking a lot more in recent times. I don’t even know how this happened. We spoke so sporadically for so many months and then all of the sudden I am completely crazy about him again. I had all but forgotten about him. He wasn’t anywhere on my radar save for the occasional hello. He is so incredibly wonderful I swear I could die happy just listening to his laugh.
Like I said, we went through this same phase when we first began talking after those months of emails.

He was so sweet back then. He doesn’t say things like that anymore. I miss it. I don’t know what’s going to happen with him. I don’t even know if he cares about me. I guess we’ll see. He’s planning a trip to see me here in Paris in a few months and he continues to talk about that quite a bit. I so hope he doesn’t change his mind. I am crazy about him. Still, I’m afraid to fully fall back into him again. Hah… I say that as if I haven’t already done so.