Hormonal?

Last night Alayna fell asleep cuddling on the couch with me. I of course, fell asleep as well, and when I woke up, Nick had already went to bed. I put Alayna in her crib and to my surprise, she didn’t wake up. She slept til 7:15 and then came in bed with Nick and I for another 2 hours.

Tonight is going to throw everything off again, though. Nick and I are going to our cousin’s going away party. Roxanne is getting deployed to Iraq. That will be 3 family members overseas because of the war, now. It’s really disheartening. I wish this darn war would end so they could come home.

I feel like such a slacker. I had planned on going in to school to take down all the Christmas decorations and get everything ready for January. I don’t even have my lesson plans ready for this week. And on top of that, I have to get the invites out for the Pot luck dinner and Sock Hop.  When we had first come up with the idea, we, as a committee, were really excited about it. But when we presented it to the rest of the faculty, it wasn’t met with as much enthusiasm and it kind of just took me to a point of "done" and "over it" but the thing is…..I’m still obligated to follow through. It’s frsutrating to not have support from those who should be supportive and unified.

I know I’m really jumping topics today….blame my hormones, lol. It is that time of the month. This morning Nick was getting ready to get in the shower. It really threw me for a loop that he was up and doing stuff on a Saturday and when I asked he said he had errands to run. I, of course, wanted to know what kind of errands, and we proceeded to get into an argument. It was stupid, really, and shouldn’t have become an issue. And in part, I do take the blame, but not all of it. I know I sometimes hold Nick to expectations in my head without laying them out on the table for him, which clearly he can’t know and therefore, cannot meet, and then I get shitty about it.

I don’t even know where I’m going with this. My head is somewhere else.

Til next time, I bid you adieu. Ciao bella.