April 12

I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t go at least 5 minutes without his name popping up in my head. I haven’t felt this way about someone in so long and it scares me. I don’t want to get hurt. I don’t want to be rejected. The thought of pushing him away because of my fears comes up a lot. Hurting myself so he can’t. I don’t know. I’m scared to put my heart out there. I know he talks to other girls… I talk to other guys. The difference is I don’t feel anything for them. He calls me goofy and confusing and cute and…. I just can’t help but think of how many girls he says that to0. I wish I knew what he was thinking.