regrets collect like old friends.

I feel like I’ve never tried to succeed, accomplished the goals I’ve always wanted to in life. I feel like I’ve missed opportunities, and its too late to pursue them. For example, I wanted to apply for America’s Next Top Model went to Saint Paul to audition, but never went why? because I’m a sacredly cat. now see a girl from Hutchinson that audition, I hope she wins though! I always life what life could have been like if I tried. Life has changed so much since High School, from people you once knew, to ones who were considered your best friends. I don’t get why life changes so much when you grow older, why things have to become so bland and dull. I don’t get to say how fun and crazy my night was anymore, how I met people offline, staying up the crack of dawn to walk to BK for a stupid chicken sandwich.. I make zero memories to remember, and it saddens me. I don’t see pictures like I used too of the old days. Seeing old pictures of being young makes me sad, and wish those days were back. Maybe, I should just accept it because I’m almost 23 and I’m not 15 anymore. I guess,I’ll have to live the bland normal "adult" life of a human being and not try to live to my fullest. Speaking of full, I just ate Nachos, and ginger snap cookies with frosting, can we say fat ass? yes.

I have been telling myself I am going on a diet,and what do I do? Stuff my face with shit and doesn’t come out of my ass…it just goes straight to my gut. This weekend, I’m going to hang out with my dearest friend Krystal…and I will make sure I don’t stuff my face. I always make her food, then I want to eat it too. ha ha. I’ll have to think of an alternative… like make her carrots.

I am watching hit and run with my boyfriend Dan, I don’t think I’ve seen it. So, lets hope it’s good. I work twelve hours tomorrow and know for a fact I’ll be D. E. A. D.

my keypad is touchy,and the cursor went all over so if my sentences don’t make sense…I blame the cursor.

ps. I really want to watch the Loopers, if anyone needs a movie suggestion. There’s mine!!! 🙂

 

baiii! <3

 

Log in to write a note
January 9, 2013

I’m not really a drunk. I only drink once every one or two weeks. I know what you mean about missing the past. I think about it all the time and it makes me depressed. But just because we’re older now doesn’t mean our lives have to be boring! We can do fun stuff that we couldn’t do when we were kids! Let’s go to a show in the cities or go to a club or take a cooking class! We’ll make our lives fun