Lifeless fuck

I feel brave, daring, and shameless. I have this “fuck it” attitude, like its been hiding for five years. I’m honestly so disappointed. It’s a tragic to of wasted so many god damn minutes, days, years of my life not living. Going out and having fun vs. being too chicken shit to do it.

I could jump on a plane and just go somewhere. I wouldn’t care where it was, I’m just sick of my same daily routine. Work, school, work, school & when something fun comes along I’m too damn tired to do it! I’m exhausted!! Old, boring, & lifeless I finally realize it and it saddens me. 🙁