could my relationship luck actually be changing?

            So again I’ve been writing about what I’ve been *doing* w/ Chris, but not about how I’m *feeling* about him. I definitely DO like him, but I’ve gotten into this really bad habit of comparing him to Brian. I like kissing Chris, but he’s not as good of a kisser as BRIAN is. Things are moving very slow w/ Chris, but they moved so fast w/ BRIAN. Chris is in touch w/ his feminine side (meaning he’s sensitive – his myspace blogs are a window into his soul lol), which is *so* unlike BRIAN. And on & on. Which I know is NOT GOOD.
 
            Brian was the rebound guy, I knew this from the start. I didn’t think I would fall so hard for a 25 yr old pot-head, but I did. And then it ended so abruptly, 1 day I thought things were going pretty good between us, & the next day he told me that he didn’t want a girlfriend & that was the end of us. That surprised me & hurt me, & has made me very wary of trusting guys.
 
            Then there’s Chris, who so far seems like a very sweet, considerate guy. And I don’t think that Kerry would set me up w/ someone who she thought would hurt me or use me, ‘cuz we’re friends & she knows what I’ve been thru. But still, I also thought Brian (here we go w/ the comparisons again!) was a really nice guy, & look what happened there.
 
            So is Chris my rebound from Brian? Cuz I’ll be honest here, I’m def NOT 100% over Brian yet (if that’s not already obvious from the fact that I keep COMPARING Chris to him!!!!!!!). It would prolly be a whole lot easier for me to forget about Brian if I stopped going to the bar he always hangs out at, & stopped checking out his (& sometimes his friends’) myspace profile. Very dumb of me, I know, but I’m bad when it comes to that stuff.
 
            But as more time passes, I’m thinking of Brian less & Chris more which is good. He’s totally reliable about calling when he says he will, which is great for me cuz that’s 1 of my major pet peeves. On the occasion that I’ve said or done anything weird (usually when drunk lol), he’s been totally cool w/ it, he doesn’t laugh at me or look at me like I’m from another planet. He pays for most things, but he also doesn’t give me a hard time when I say that *I* wanna pay for something.
 
            Talking to him makes me smile, & thinking about the next time I’m going to see him makes me happy. He’s not perfect of course. He’s a bit indecisive & a little shy, but overall I think we mesh pretty well & I definitely am starting to fall for him. And he’s cute, have I mentioned that? Not GQ model material at all, but much better than the guys I usually go for (w/ the exception of Doug who’s HOTT lol).
 
            I haven’t brought up the whole “I’m still a virgin” thing to him yet, but he seems like he’d be pretty understanding about it. I don’t think I wrote in here about how close I came w/ Brian to having sex. He popped my cherry, but I’m so tight down there (I don’t even use tampons) that everything hurt a lot so thankfully we never sealed the deal, ‘cuz I’d be seriously regretting that right now if we had.
 
            I guess that’s about it, I don’t wanna bore you all w/ the details of what we did & when. We’ve obviously been hanging out lately, we average about 1-2 nights a week, which I’m hoping increases soon. We still haven’t had the *us* talk, but from things he’s said to me over the past week or so I’m getting the impression that he def does like me, so I’m willing to hold off on that convo for a few more weeks (but def not much longer than that, cuz I will *NOT* have a replay of the Brian & I situation).
 
            I will def keep you guys updated on things & feel free to offer any advice if you have any! Hope October is treating everyone well, ‘till next time…!