Mr. Officer

I made plans today with Mr. Officer (as in – police officer). He’s someone I met when I was 21.

At that time, I was a party girl. All I cared about was going out with my friends, and he was more of a home-body.

He wanted a relationship, I didn’t. He was in love with me, but I wasn’t in love with him. We messed around a few times and it seemed to make him more obsessive and clingy.

Anyway, after a while I put up a wall. He remained a friend, but nothing more.

Years later, Mr. Officer got married, but his marriage only lasted 6 months. He called me when he got his divorce finalized, and vented to me about it. I felt bad for him.

When everything happened with Max, I called him and vented to him about it as well.

A week ago I started thinking… Him and I have both been through a lot in the last 12 years. I wonder if we should try again?

Anyway, he asked me out and I agreed.

BUT… I just cancelled our plans for today.

First, I don’t think I’m ready. Second, he started being obsessive again… Texting me, wanting to sleep with me, wanting me to send him sexy pics, asking me what I’m wearing… etc. He’s moving way too fast and I don’t like how inappropriate he’s being.

I realize that I can’t go backward with anyone I used to date. There’s a reason they stayed in my past.

Sigh. I need someone new. I want no history of wrongs and hurt. I want a fresh face, and a nervous first kiss. I want someone I can explore.

Jack

July 12, 2013

Her sounds creepy and not the good kind either

Aw that’s cute though. Always nice to find someone good and new. You shouldn’t waste your time with him. You’ll find a cool good guy. Explore how my body is a wonderland hahaha sorry can’t help myself sometimes

mybeautdee

Smart move. He’s showing the lack of respect to you now. I don’t see how that will improve down the line. Not a good beginning. He’s a typical guy creep. Start dating when you’re ready. Date for fun to get your feet when. Then when you are ready, date for a relationship.

Oooooh tequila makes me mean. Getting some evil **** tattooed on me haha. Working on my legs these days. Fun!

somerandomguy

July 13, 2013

I was super excited to come home to read all about your date.. but there was nothing. :(. But, after reading everything, I completely understand why you did what you did. After everything that happened with Max, you are looking for someone who wasn’t the same person when you were in your wildchild days. (That’s what Adriana and I call that period in life..

.. what you were at 21. But, I am guessing like her, you aren’t gonna tell us about those days cause it’s going to scare the bejesus out of us. And those are the stories I shouldn’t be hearing, right?) Anyways.. You have to do what is right in your comfort zone, my friend. 🙂 And you will find that fresh face, that’ll make you nervous and stumble when you just think about him..

.. and the whole foot in the air thing when you kiss for the first time. Oh, oh, oh, and like in “Sleepless in Seattle”, in the end, when Meg Ryan takes Tom Hanks’ hand and says, “It’s nice to meet you, Sam.”, with the HUGEST smile. It’ll happen. I know for a fact. And I can’t simply wait to see it happen. One of these days. Before the bad, bad health of mine goes ..

.. KABOOM!! Again, the fact that you didn’t jump into something makes you more special and wonderful than you think. And that’s why I can feel in my heart. And again, so, so, so ready to hear all about. 🙂 And maybe, just maybe, it’ll make me a believer in that Mandy Moore/Kelly Clarkson type of love once again. 🙂 Hope you are enjoying your Saturday!! 🙂 Neil

Yeah, while I wanted to go beat the **** out of him and have a few choice words with her, I let it go. Trying to continue to let it go..