Hot Mess

I have no words to describe what a hot mess I was on Sat. 

I didn’t go out after all. My coworker canceled.

So what did I do? I had a Kim K crying session – by accident. 

I think I surprised myself by how much I cried.

In all fairness… I am PMS’ing. lol!

I was crying over everything.

Cute commercial – crying.
My mom asked me how I was doing – crying.
I watched Basic Instinct – crying.
I found a pic of Max – crying… hard.
Max sent me a pic of his daughter – crying… even harder.

It was really embarrassing and ridiculous. Thank God no one really saw me.

Sunday I woke up with my eyes completely swollen shut. I looked like a boxer that had gone 12 rounds. smh.

The crazy thing is I still feel that lump in my throat… you know that lump that makes it hard to swallow and reminds you there’s still more tears left somewhere behind everything you’re trying to hide and control.

I’m taking my emotional, crampy, bloated ass to the gym today. Watch me start crying on the treadmill. hmmph.  -_-

I can’t wait till this week is over.