He said…

That I was brave and tough for walking away.
That he’s not mad at me.
That he’s glad that I put my foot down and stood up for myself.
That he is trying to adjust to life without me.
That his daughter took my leaving very hard.
That he spent his birthday alone and moody.
That he doesn’t know what he wants.
That he hasn’t called because he doesn’t want us going backward.
That he’s taking this time to find himself.

That’s what I got in the email he sent me today.
I have mixed feelings about everything he had to say.
It feels like he just served me a big dose of "It’s not you, it’s me" bullshit.

But who knows. Maybe he really has some issues to work on. All I know is I’m not holding on to any hope that he and I will work out anymore.

I got this email early in my day, so I couldn’t focus on much of anything else afterward. I didn’t get a lot done at work, so I’ll be stressed out tomorrow. =/

I went and got my nails done after work, then picked up some Chinese take-out. My fortune cookie said, "Good news will arrive in the mail." I’m not holding my breath for that one. lol. However, UPS came today and brought the stand-up mirror/jewelry armoire that I ordered online. I don’t know if you can consider it furniture, but it’s the first item that I bought for my house, and I’m excited about it.

Ladies, you need one if you don’t have one! I love how it keeps everything organized. I found it at Sears. It’s $180.

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mybeautdee

July 15, 2013

Oooo that is so awesome!!!! I want!!!!!!!! Be strong lady! Work on a better you! Don’t be stagnant and move forward! It can only get better 🙂

somerandomguy

July 16, 2013

I agree with the fortune cookie.. that was good news that came in the mail. The day you get this email from Max, you also get this really pretty piece in the mail. Duh, I think it’s good news. 🙂 At least, he came around and finally said something. And whatever it is, the reality or appearance of his true feelings, at least he came around. He said what was on his mind.

.. And I’m glad that he did. Because, you needed that. You deserved that. At least you can start to bridge that cold ass silence that remains between the two of y’all, and hopefully pick up the pieces of your shattered heart and figure out to piece the pieces back together. And that’s what counts in the end anyways, you know? Some of what he wrote about you being brave walking away..

.. and walking away, I wish I could have told you that too, but I completely agree with he says. :). (I’m sorry, it’s true, I do!!) Don’t work too hard today. Or at all. 😉

.. Beyond all of the other stuff that makes you as an awesome of a person as it is. You are a really truly loving person and you deserve nothing but the best with what life can give you. It can happened for you. You have so much to offer that it is there for you. Just, like I wrote yesterday, some people, it is, and some people, it isn’t. You are the former, I am the latter.

I don’t know.. just **** break ups. Seriously. I’m over all this ****..over wondering and then getting slapped with some bull****. I asked her how she was, just said I had been thinking about her. Then she asked me if I was seeing anyone else, i said no and asked her and she still said no, I called her out on lying and then it just got ugly. I should’ve just let it go, but I can’t, never have..

..never will. It’s just frustrating. I would’ve done anything for her and she wouldn’t give me a chance. I don’t even want to try to start over with another. I don’t know, I don’t know what to say, I’m sorry. I’m still letting it ruin things today. I want to break ****.

Yeah I’d rather her not pretend to care. Come on over and break ****. I think it’ll be therapeutic. Then we can get drunk. 😉