Florida

So I booked my flight to Florida. I’ll be leaving in Nov – Veteran’s Day weekend.  I’m nervous but excited.

I don’t think I’ve ever gone to these lengths to meet a guy. I’m still trying to decide if it’s romantic or pathetic. LOL!!!

Mr. Surfer paid for my room which he says is a beachfront penthouse. I like that he’s trying to impress me, but he really doesn’t have to. I’m not high-maintenance. Give me a roof and running water and I’m good. LOL 🙂

Anyway, not much else going on. Yes, I still miss Max, but more and more I’m realizing how different him and I were. I am also beginning to feel so much anger at myself at how I did the majority of the compromising. How I loved him more than I loved myself. How I was willing to sacrifice my own happiness for his. That’s the purest definition of blind love.

You can never see the destruction a tornado causes when you’re in the eye of it. Only when you’re far from it standing on solid ground, do you see the width and heighth of it’s ferocity and the damage it’s causing.