Ex’s on FB

The ex posted a pic of some tickets for a sporting event in Cali that he is going to. I sank like it was a direct hit to my battleship.

That was supposed to be OUR vacation, but there he was going on with his life without me. I know I’m in for much more hurtful posts in the future, but the reality is that he isn’t looking back, and I still am.

I need to stop.

I could delete him, but I’ve always seen it as an immature move. It’s something that dramatic people do when the object of their affection turns into their symbol of utter rejection. I’m too proud to admit defeat in that way.

When I got home I drank a glass of wine and plopped on the couch to unwind. I started watching The Bachelorette by accident. At one point she passionately kisses this one guy and you can see her face light up. I remember that feeling.

It kinda made me hopeful about meeting someone new someday. I realize I’m not completely jaded.

I’ll be excited for the moment those silly butterflies decide to take residence in my belly again.

It’s a beautiful thing, really.

I will go to sleep with that feeling.

Hope.

its his loss. someone better will come along…..take it from me. *random note*

Parrothead5183

June 24, 2013

Ugh… I am glad there was no facebook the last time I had a breakup. That can’t be fun…

amata

June 25, 2013

How about just hiding his updates from your newsfeed for a while? Or if you actively go to his profile, blocking him for a little bit so you can’t. No need to completely delete him, but no harm in giving yourself time to get over him without reminders of how he’s already moving on.

somerandomguy

Good morning!! 🙂 Unfortunately, these things happen all of the time where the ex doesn’t realize that how much a trip that was planned out together or a particular place that y’all used to go to or things like that, and continues to go and do without seeing how much value it was to y’all relationship. It is a sad, sad thing, unfortunately. But, in your heart, you have to know..

.. that the reason you are still struggling with it, is because of how much love and care you have for him. And from what I learn (obviously, not as much as you, Carrie, my sophisticated writer of love/romantic/poetry) in my 31 years of life (though I feel like lately it has been 80), that when you have this love with your best friend, it hurts ever more. Because, it was not just some guy or gal..

.. it’s your best friend. The person who you share your deepest, darkest secret. The person where you wore your heart on your sleeve for. The person who you could be just you. (That’s why in the end despite it all, the girls just always ran to each other, cause they were each other best friend despite how good or bad their relationships were going. Like remember when Miranda got married..

.. and the girls were all sitting there, and Miranda came there just to check on them, and she saw the sorrow look at their eyes and she sat and was like **** my wedding, I want to know what’s going on.. and they all sat there and talk about Samathana’s breast cancer diagnosis). And that’s why you still can’t delete him off Facebook. Because you still love him too much. Cause though he’s an ex..

.. the reason you struggle more, is because he is your best friend. And best friends love each other, through it all. You are never going to stop loving him. And when you are best friends with someone of the opposite sex (when you are straight), it hurts even more. But all you can do, kid, is be who you are. And as you wrote at the end of the entry, know that you will find that special guy ..

.. one of these days where you will get that “butterfly” feeling in your stomach. Where, like in the movies, when you kiss the guy, you do prop your one foot in the air as you lean and kiss your guy. It will happen cause despite it all that has happened, (and despite your going to say it’s my aliment about your heads in the clouds about being the romantic idealist!!)..

.. because I always believe that good things happens to kind heart and love people. (Yes, I know the cliché is good things happen to those who wait, and good things happen to good people, but.. this is what I have started to believe. But this is something that I have start believing after being besties with Adriana. I watch her daily struggle with work, raising her kids, ..

.. and her marriage. Despite all of that, she manages everything with a smile on her face and not a word to other people except me of the whole story. I just hope that she finds her happiness and she finds the best in life cause that’s all she deserves. And I make sure to tell her that everyday cause that’s important, you know?) I hope that with that feeling that you slept good last night..

.. and wine is a good substitute to help sleep instead of those pills.. and reading my diary. 🙂 RYN: 🙂 Seriously, you make me smile with your comments and notes. You are really a great girl. I’m lovin’ already this that we got going on. I seriously read your note and smile saying nothing for 10 minutes before saying good morning to Adriana via text. Have a great and wonderful day!! 🙂 Neil

RYN: Sadily, nope. But hey, you could have it happen, and then brag it about it to me. 🙂 And I wouldn’t even jealous. Not one little bit. (Okay, maybe a little) How are you doing? How’s the day going!!!!! (It’s good that we don’t have each other number. So would be texting you all day!!!)