Dear God

"God won’t give you anything you can’t handle."

I was thinking about this phrase today; partly because I feel overwhelmed, but mostly because I feel so fragile that I could shatter if one more hurtful thing is placed on my heart.

Am I stronger than I give myself credit for? God must think so.

But Dear God, if you’re reading this… I get it. I learned my lesson and I understand.

Can it stop now? =/

mybeautdee

August 6, 2013

I promise you. One day long from here, you will look back at these moments…Where you built yourself up…and how far you have come. And be proud that you were strong to pull through and have no regrets about it. *hugs*

mybeautdee

August 6, 2013

Azzura

August 7, 2013

Hard times and hard!! I feel you and am with you on this! At a hard time too! Hopefully god has a good plan for both of us!

Yeah, one night I accidentally ran in to her while out drinking. That didn’t go well. She came over the next night. She apologized a lot. I told her she needed to figure out what she wanted. She tried to kiss me. I told her we had to stop doing this. She left upset.

I don’t want to play games. She knows I want her but only if it’s really going to work. We’ll see if she reaches out to me in a few days, if not, I’ll continue to leave her alone.

I love her vi want her happy. But I’m not going to let myself spiral out of control again. When I met her, I told her I was used to people just leaving me, it took me a long time to be ready to give us a shot. I’m not doing it again just to end up ****ed up and alone, again. Mentally I can’t handle it.

God that makes me sound ridiculous. I never should’ve relied on anyone. Hope you are doing okay.

I know I need to open up. There’s just few I can open up with. Between trust issues and seeing people as selfish. Just too much goes on in my head to really open up. But oh well. Anyway. I think she just saw me starting to detach from everything and it scared her. I worry she thinks I want to run, or something..