"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
Another text I won’t send to him..
You knew my past. You knew I came from shit. You knew what my Father had done to me, you knew what other men had done to me. You repeatedly coerced me to be raw and vulnerable with you, you convinced me to trust you. I really did trust you. But now, well now I…
He likes me, I think.
Avoiding work. Nothing new. I just screw myself doing this as I have to work late and all that. Really, I’m listening to a training and need something to do while I listen. So why not write an entry? The amazing random info - Tom likes me. Like I think he genuinely likes me. I…
Just rambling
I remain my own worst enemy. Working on it. Definitely working on it. The thoughts I create in my head though. They suck. Basically at the end of every day I revert to the fact nobody could REALLY like me and I’m probably too much for most everyone and I’m pushing too hard. Sigh. I…
Overthinking: My Own Worst Enemy
The title says it all. I’m my own worst enemy when it comes to getting inside my head and absolutely overthinking anything & everything. It’s so frustrating. You could say things with Tom have been going well. Thanks to my work schedule I had a ton of days off in a row from my second…
One Month of Dating or Whatevershipping Updates…..
I was so damn happy when I woke up yesterday. It’s amazing how quickly happiness can be shattered by a few simple words and the loss of someone amazing. *Sigh* - I was going to write a happy post tho. So I’m still going to try. I’m happy. I’m just sad too. But damn it…
Another Major Family Loss
I’m sad. So fucking sad. I had grand plans of writing an entry about how good things were going. However, the amazingness was shattered by a soul crushing loss of one of the most important people in my life. I’m broken. I hurt. I’m sad. I’m angry. You name it. I feel it. Kathy. Died.…
It’s the little things.
Found that quote scrolling and I loved it. There was a different quote a few weeks ago that I’d loved- Instead of continuing to ask a clown why he’s a clown, ask yourself why you keep going to the circus. So true, Max & I entirely. He’s a clown but I kept returning when he…
Upgrading to phone calls… I think.
Another day has came and went. It’s a struggle to focus quite often. To not obsess over stupid, little things. I seriously question how I functioned before being given Adderall. Did I ever get any work done? Without it, I’m often in left field seeing a squirrel and counting butterflies. It’s ridi...
I REALLY like him.
I like him. Like genuinely like him. Not just lust him. Not infatuated with him. Not obsessed with him just to have someone to distract me. Not hanging out with him because it’s better than being alone. No. None of that. Genuine like. Real interest. Legit catching feelings. I REALLY LIKE HIM. Thu...
26 Years Ago…
SA Trigger Warning It amazes me the things our bodies hold on to. The fact we may not mentally remember, yet our nervous system and subconscious mind are holding on tightly. The remember. They activate at triggers… smells, tastes, feelings, dates. It’s been 26 years since that awful night. I don’...