Well I made it..

Well this week was Halloween, which means it was also my anniversary, or it would have been. Yeah the ex and I got married on Halloween. It was very fitting and a dream I had since I was a kid. Well I thought for sure the day would be a very sad one and I would be mean to anyone that came in my path. It was quite the opposite. I was happy, the day was great and I didn’t think about my ex once. Well maybe once, in the early morning when I thought, "oh this would have been four years". It makes me sad to think that its over, but I needed it to end. I am proud of myself that I didn’t allow the hurt to overtake the day I love so much. I did not celebrate the day and I will next year. I hope this was a clear sign that things will get better. I am experiencing the feeling of being alone more so than before. I think this feeling will help me to overcome some fears I have of being alone with my thoughts. I have cut out all drama in my life, and hope nothing pops up. I really am one of those people that drama will follow, even if I am sitting in my livingroom watching TV.