Happy Happy Birthday Zoey

Today is my baby girls birthday. She is officially 4. We had her birthday party Saturday, and she got to show off the stitches above her temple… Yeah I said stitches. Her 6 year old brother was swinging an aluminum bat around in a circle thursday and she walked in the path and it smacked her  upside the head. She didn’t lose consiousness but she had to have 5 stitches and had a mild concussion. The funy thing is her brother was more upset and crying harder than she was. He kept asking her if she hated him. Of course she said no and it was ok. She told him it was an accident which came out sounding like asskident, lol.  

Anyway, back to the birthday… I don’t know how to feel about her getting older. We have 4 kids and I am aware they grow up but with the others I knew more kids were coming. With Zoey I know every milestone I see will be the last one I get to experience. It tears me up. I am about to cry just writing about it. I always knew I wanted a big family. I would love to have another but my husband is the voice of reason and says we can’t afford it. I guess he’s right but it still doesn’t stop this feeling that I am supposed to have another baby. I don’t know how to explain it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOE POE!!!!!!!! Mommy loves you hunny bunny