i thought it was real

i feel asleep right after i got off the phone with my boyfriend and stayed that way until 447 this morning… when i awoke from a nightmare…
 
it was awful.
 
i decided to go see him and for some reason he lived right around the corner from me, with my boys, and there were a lot of people standing outside around the side of the house.  i rounded the corner and the crowd broke, he was there, laying on the ground, shot.  i was frozen.  everyone was just watching me.  i went to go inside of hisplace and try to figure this out but by the time i got there (walking around the corner) someone had already moved his body into his home.  he were laying on the floor and all i could do was weep.  i then went to go to my folks place for some comfort and when i got there his body was in the front drive.  the police were doing an autopsy for some reason and my parents had to hold me back, didnt want me to see him that way.  when i finally woke up i was actually mourning him…  i looked over to his side of the bed and it was empty, it almost felt real……………