havent been laid in ages.

gawd… its like frustrating, everyone seems to be getting laid except me. its been a couple of years for me, but my bestfriend calls me to tell me about her sexcapades with her boyfriend last night..

like i really wanted to hear about that, out of all guys i couldve dated, i pick the 26 yr old virgin/youth pastor lol.  i mean the most we ever do is make out, maybe throw in a handjob from time to time. craving more than that though.. i want MoRe! lol. and i know hes not budging, because hes on this whole "waiting until marriage trip"

*sigh* trying to learn some self control when im with him, kinda jumped him the last time we were at his place, but then i backed off some and left him alone, because i know the end result would be me not getting any! =/  I like him so i guess for now its worth sticking it out, and trying to be go0d for the time being lol.

*sigh* he asked me to stay over today, not really looking to be teased tonight…ugh, think im gonna pass.
i’ve been trying to keep myself busy with work and my son- and keep my mind off of it, which isnt easy when its in your face, with tv, computer, my friends reporting back to me about their sex marathons… should be climbing the walls by now.