I am an Island

I feel so empty … I dont understand … you left without even a goodbye 🙁

I gave you all I have, I love you with all that is humanly possible, I can’t love you anymore … why are you doing this? Our past (the short one that we have) have been filled with many emotions… I am sorry for the hurt I caused you. I cant take it back. Can we continue ? Can this be put behind us ? Can we build something meaningful together ? It always comes back to the past … a time when our lives were filled with clutter … transition time for both of us.

I am hurt, scared of what will come next, and feeling so much like an island, so alone … I cant continue this roller coaster heart ache. Maybe you are looking for me to push you away… set you free

I dont understand or maybe I do…

I love you and will always love you eternally.

Forgiveness is an absolute yet forgetting takes time. I look to you wherever I set my gaze and hope that I see you in my view. This rollercoaster is about out of steam and I long for a smooth, venturesome ride with you. I long to let our love run free and it will do just that. I will continue to put a distance between what has been and try to overlook the past. I hate what has happened and am

I hate what has happened and am plagued by it’s affects on me. Can you provide the cure to the malaise which clings to my heart? Can you heal me with all that is D#$%@? I love you like there’s no tomorrow and feel like we have one. Can we hold hands and be friends and take long walks together? Can we spend the rest of oblivion together? Can we share all between us and love one another?

I love you sooo much it hurts to think of any other way of being. I love you more and more each day and want us to be strong and secure. Help me build and firm up what we now share. I will love you forever, Debrajean.