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I actually slept last night – not well, but i slept. Things haven’t been “normal” on a personal level. I just wanna say that everyone has been great: Mum, Bros, friends, the dog, work and Mr R. This whole period in my life could be so much worse than it is. Everyone has been texting, calling, messaging … I’ve felt cared for. Thank you to you all, so so much xoxoxoxo

But the reality is, I’m alone.

Then tonight, out of the blue, whilst sitting on my bed, setting up for Open Diary, I had a moment of pure peace. The sun was setting and thin streams of light were trailing through my window, and across my lap. I could feel the warmth flickering over my arm and see it glistening like stardust on my eyelashes. The color was so warm, so friendly, so life giving, so full of hope and the promise of dreams. So shiny.

I don’t remember the last time i had such a sensation. I had actually thought i’d outgrown it lol. This was the warmth of solitary self. Slight difference at the surface yet so profound at its core. And a gift from the Universe (without getting too spiritual on yo’ a***s)

Hope. What a wonderful feeling. LOL I’m such a romantic.

ooo shiny