Decisions

Well, making decisions is certainly not a strong suit of mine…Procrastinating and dealing with everything as it is seems to be more my style.  I have a 2 dead end jobs which barely pay my bills, but here I am…sticking with them for reasons I’m not quite sure.  It’s easier…than searching and being disappointed.  I guess having an amazingly nice boss who is the easiet person in the world to get along with helps.  I pay my bills…barely…so it’s ok.  I just know I am meant to be doing sooooo much more with this life…I’m smarter than I give myself credit for…but stupider than I realize too..

My boy…my man…what to do what to do…

It’s so sad what has happend between us.  We met and fell in love, despite the fact that we knew we were 100% different people who might not be able to make each other happy….but we tried, and it worked for a long time.  Then, the love bird stage wore off…and here we are.  Struggling to get along.  Torn between our completely different interests…definitely not inspiring each other to be the people we want to be.  Not sure if we should ever tie the knot….so what are we doing?  We own a house together which just adds a lot of complications to our situation.  It’s not easy to break up… but absolutely not easy when we’d have to sell the house and drag it out…

And I do love him and want to be with him.. We just have a lot of growing up to do…

Decisions…I’m really not good at making them…and even worse at sticking to them.