Day #4b…Now we’re getting somewhere
While I was still in the Navy, I had a roommate who was a lesbian, we were good friends first and then began a relationship that lasted 5 years. She was a good person and I hope shes found someone to spend her life with.
I had gotten out of the Navy while she and I were still together and had a couple of flings with married men that never lasted more than a few incidents. I was working for a military government contractor and began dating my boss while I was still with my roommate we had both mutually agreed we were drifting apart emotionally although I suspect it was mostly me that wanted out of the relationship. My boss and I dated for only a month and on April Fools day .we took the day off and got married. He had just gotten custody of his 5 month old daughter from a previous relationship mother was married put baby up for adoption father went to court to get custody. All kinds of warning signs going up at this point. I didnt care tho he took over every part of my life before we ever even moved in together I think wed dated only a handful of times before he took over my finances but FINALLY .someone was taking care of me. We had 2 more kids shortly after getting married and even tho the controlling behavior was slowly starting to chip way at me we were relatively happy. He made me quit working I was an aircraft mechanic for 13 years and I loved it to stay home with the kids and I think this was the fatal mistake I was NOT a happy stay at home mom! He let me do home daycare to earn a little money I hated this and I hated being home all day. I missed all my work friends .I had no other friends but they were all male friends which was a big no no to my hubby. Ive always had male friends instead of female ones I dont relate well to most women Im too cynical, layed back and I dont get involved in gossip & such.
Anyway once we got a computer 6 years into our marriage I discovered the world of the Internet and I embraced it like a long lost lover! It was my connection with the outside world. We did go to church for a while built I dont think my husband was really into it and I never felt like I fit in .I believe in God, the Bible and Jesus but religion doesnt sit well with me.