I Don’t Know
I’am really startin to believe what the doctor at sheppard pratt diagnosied me with two yrs ago.
Which was major depression which means all day 24/7 iam in some way
depressed and lately thats how i have been feeling, exspecailly when iam alone.
Thats how i feel today, depressed.
You remember the boy i was talkin about in my last diary entry???????????
Well he asked me to go back wit him and i didnt answer.
Its like atfirst i wanted him back soooo bad but now that he wants me back after all this time and is ready to treat me right
i really dont think i want him.
And that is weird.
I dont know what i want right now iam confused my damn self!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha it’s really not that bad. i’m just involved in too many things which overwhelms me and freaks me out a little bit. If I wasn’t in marching band that would uncomplicate things so much! Don’t cheat yourself out of a good time! I’ve been on the other end of the spectrum and quite frankly I’d rather be overwhelmed and having a good time then not doing anything at all! <3
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thats not weird at all! i think its normal.. i like when i can be like HA, i dont even wantchu when they think they can get what they want! Yakno? Question.. did u go to the hospital, and what did you do with the baby?
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i have depression i never went to a doctor to find out but i deal with depression so i know what you feel like. don’t give up hope its really hard not to give up but just try
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I have had major depression, too. It helped me to look for at least one good thing, every day. Words are a dime a dozen, you know? I’d say that if he proves to you (I imagine it would take a while) that he’s really changed, then, after that, maybe give him another chance. I never seem to know what I want either. I think it can be easier to figure out when you spend time alone, writing or
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thinking or whatever, or talking things out with people. But I don’t know. I’m not a specialist or anything. But I hope things get better for you, and you can figure stuff out.
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it wont let me private.. but i have sumthing serious to talk to you about message me on myspace.
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ryn:I hope it helps, or something does, and things get better. and you’re welcome, and I’m sorry if I sound pretentious sometimes or whatever. I try not to, but I think I get it from my dad…
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