I feel like crying.

                    Well today is Mother’s Day and my birthday is as usual 4 days away and as you can tell, I feel like crying. I feel so horrible. Fat stupid little dick asshole who won’t leave has not done anything for me. Breakfast was nasty. The eggs were burned and salty. I hate hot tea and he used the kids plates and they got mad because it is their plates. So my day began with screams and attitudes. He put Brummel and Brown on my cinnamon raisin bread and it was nasty. He just lost his job at CTA and has been out of work for over 6 weeks. Hasn’t found a job and I’m so tired of him. I have 3 kids. I don’t need another one! Leave it isn’t going to work blah blah blah. Cussing him out doesn’t -nothing helps! He didn’t even get me a dollar card with an IOU inside. For God’s sake! They’re 2 for a dollar at the dollar store! Are you trying to say I’m not worth 50 cents!?!! I know what he’s planning. How are you going to take me to a concert and you have NO MONEY!!!!!! I’ll be 25 in 4 days. I’m getting way too old for someone to want me. 3 kids too. FUck my mom has been married 3 times! I’m only asking for once. Do I really want to lower myself and live the rest of my life with a man who can’t find his own dick with a searchlight? Why hasn’t God answered my letter? All I want is for someone to share life with. eHarmony told me that the ability to not be able to match someone happens to about 1 out of 25 people and I happen to be the 25th person. A couple of my friends tried and got the same response. so we think it’s racially set up. Plus I mean we all live in Gary so we think that has something to do with it as well. Will I ever find my Sote? I am running out of time. For the record eHarmony, I’M NATIVE AMERICAIN not black so there! Oh well dear journal.                                    Bisous