I want to be me!

Hello!  It’s been a while since my last entry. I’m just not good at this. However I plod onward.  I read the question for the week, "What celebrity would you like to look like?"  and I thought, "I don’t want to look like any of them!!!!!!!"   I just want to be me!  Even growing up I never wanted to be anyone other than myself.  I didn’t always feel good about myself, but I have never hated myself either.

I read some entries on the "Some kind of a circle" diary. Someone mentioned having an anxiety attack. Well, I’m no stranger to that. Panic Attacks are no fun.  I have learned that with some effort you can keep anxiety from overwhelming you and keeping you from doing what you need to do. Not easy I admit, but doable. I have to let myself be angry or irritated. Give myself permission not to like a situation and tell myself the world isn’t going to end because of whatever it is and  I can take control of my feelings. I am learning that serenity is something found inside me and I must learn how to tap into it.

Sunflower

 

You look to the sun

raising your large yellow head

to the light

to the warmth

majestic in your bearing

in your fancy dress

of green leaves

until the time

your head begins

to nod

heavy with seeds

leaves become dry

withered in  the chilling

breezes of Autumn.

 

 

Rainbow Weaver