Football, football…and football

Well, I have made a decision….if and when FOD ever decides to fix itself up, I am not going to go back and restore all my old entries. I believe I have all the entries saved so nothing was lost. Call it just another step in trying to let go of some of the past that has continued to trouble me, if not my actions at the very least my thoughts. And I need to do everything I can to stop that. I’m just glad I had the good sense to back up and now I don’t have to have lost everything like so many others have.

So let’s see here…quite a few things have taken place since my last update….haha, I never thought I would slack off so much that I would be updating two weeks at a time…but on the weekend of the 17th-19th, I spent it up in Kokomo. Our main goal that weekend was to look at some places for the furniture we will need for our new apartment. There is a place that is having their out of business sale and we thought that’d be a good a place as any to start, but the prices were still ridiculously high. There was some encouragement in a couple other places we looked at, but we have nothing definite at this point. At least we got to look at some of our options and at the very least it helps with budgeting and decorating planning.

Travis took me to ring browse at Strickler’s, so now he has my input as to what I would like in a ring. Of course the final choice will rest with him, but I gave him a few “don’ts” and my preferences. So there’s a lot left to choose from. Since his only piece of jewelry will be his band, and I don’t care about “matching gold and silver” like pretty much every other woman on the planet, I let him pick what metal and all that. It’s only fair 🙂 Just going there made me teary eyed….

Then we rounded off our planning heavy day by going to register at Target. It took a lot longer than I had assumed it would, but nevertheless it was a lot of fun picking stuff for our place. So yeah, you can actually go look and there we are! It’s a big to-do off our list and one less thing we have to worry about now. I figured it would be easier to do it now when we have free time than later when we’d be more busy looking for an apartment or something.

Sunday we had the second of the premarital counseling sessions with Pastor, and it involved discussing the paperwork we had planned the last time. From the session we both gathered that there are many things on the “newlywed discussion checklist” that we have already talked about at length. For example, each person’s role in handling the chores, the finances, that sort of thing. Go us for being ahead of the game! But I do like the fact that we are going, it helps to have a third party look at our relationship and give us positive reinforcement from a Christian perspective. I just wish he wouldn’t place so much emphasis on the role of our families in our lives together – I sometimes get the impression that he is saying that, just because my parents don’t have a wonderful marriage, I won’t bring the same mentality and expectations to mine. I know I bring a lot of “these things I won’t do”, but it just comes off as saying as if I’m lacking something. But I’m trying to not let that affect me too much, because it is clear that if I dwell on this particular thing all it will do is annoy me and get under my skin. I am painfully aware of all the mistakes my parents have made and I know the don’ts; that doesn’t make me be any less.

Then came five long mindless days filled with work, work, and more work. Last week was particularly long because it made me feel like I was trapped back in my “robotic” state. I was so drained that I didn’t even want to do anything once I got home.

This weekend was football, football, and more football. Friday Travis had to cover a game close to Indy, so I went with him. It was an exciting game between closely matched high schools, so that was fun. After the game we made the two hour or so drive to Champaign, IL, to watch Purdue play at U-Illinois. That was also very fun, it was tighter than we expected it to be, but the important part was that Purdue got the win. Right now both my ‘Canes and Travis’s Boilermakers are 3-0, so bragging rights are still equal 🙂 I really liked the Illini stadium; it gave me another NCAA stadium on my list and another “visited state” (technically I had been to Illinois, but I don’t count airport layovers)…But I could have certainly done without the bees swarming us at the game. Ugh. I was starting to feel a bit faint near the end of the first half thanks to the lack of water fountains on the upper deck, but at halftime I paid the rape charge for a Coke and I was fine (also out of bottled water! GRRR!!!)

After a seemingly shorter drive back, we came back to my place to watch more football, then after dinner we went out to Tiki Bob’s for what we hoped to be a fun night out. But unfortunately it didn’t turn out that way…first I got upset that Travis didn’t want to dance – and what makes it really frustrating is that it’s like he will dance anywhere except when we actually go someplace to dance. And I want to dance a lot. We hadn’t gone out in ages and I know we both could have used a good night out….Then I had gone to the bathroom and was coming back, some chick was with Travis and I saw she hurriedly went away when he saw me coming. He told me something about who she was, but I felt it was slightly weird that she had left pretty much the second I was returning. No introduction or anything. That was bad enough, but then Travis kept avoiding me when I tried to dance with him or if I’d get closer to him, he’d back off. And that pissed me off. I was tired of dancing with the counter. I asked to go home, and then we got into it. Trust is being rebuilt, but the avoidance sent up a big flag to me. It was pretty nasty, but we both finally calmed down to resolve it.

By Sunday things were okay again though. We tried our best to scalp tickets for the Packers-Colts game, but we didn’t want to pay $90 for $35 seats. That’s ridiculous and that was still the best deal we had. So we were at B-Dubs for the early games, and went back for the Packers-Colts. Good game.

Then yesterday was work again (booooooooooooo) but I got bonus time with Travis since he had a meeting closer to me on Tuesday, he came to spend the night with me to not drive so much first thing in the morning. So what’d we do with part of our free night? Monday Night Football at B-Dubs for a chance to win a 27” TV. We ended up with seven chances but came up empty handed. Double booooo.

Monday was Katie’s 24th birthday and I am super happy for her….she got a dozen red roses from Jim, the guy she’s seeing now! I know they are long distance now, and I certainly know how hard it is. But he seems really sweet and just what she needs – I know she’s had a string of shitty men and it’s about time she found a good one. And I told her I’d kick his ass if he hurt her. It was big not only because it was incredibly sweet, but also because it was the first time she’s ever gotten flowers from a guy. So he’s gotta be something special. About time for her! I just want her to be happy, and this will certainly help 🙂 Seems like romance is brewing in the air – Travis and my wedding plans, at least four other couples I know also planning weddings, one friend that just gave his girl a promise ring, three relationships in early stages…wow!